April 20th, 2010 Vivid Dream
Last night after I went to bed early; I kept wondering why God would want me alive enduring all this physical and emotional pain. Why he didn’t take me as well on that day of the accident. Somehow the questions triggered a vivid dream with a deep message for me.
I found myself in that amusement park again but this time I was in a different part of it, there was nothing but games around. I was just wondering to see where I was but this man grabbed me by the right arm and told me, “You need to be playing this game”. He said that while showing me a table full of gold goblets, some were full of water, some half way, others empty.
He said “you need to keep feeling this cups to win the game”, I keep filling the cups with water but as I kept doing it, the water kept disappearing from it. It was very frustrating and every time I was about to give up, the man kept rushing me saying “keep going, you are not done yet”. I finally stopped since I saw myself doing this and wondering of why and what could be the winning prize from such stupid game. I asked the man, “What is the purpose to fill them when the water keep disappearing, this is just a waste of time for me” . He smiled at me, and said “The cup is life and the water is hope, you need to keep playing the game of life non stop and keep your cups full of water until you run out of water”. I asked him “what is the purpose to live a life full of pain as I am right now”, he smiled at me and with his arm he show me the table full of cups and I felt urge to keep those cups full of water. I believe I most done it all night long since my hands and shoulders are hurting this morning like I was using them all night.
All I can think this morning is in the cup of life as he call it. My cups are empty and I need to keep filing them without expecting anything for it. I might never find out in this lifetime of why God spared me that awful Tuesday morning, April 13th, but sure hope to find out after I am gone from this lifetime. Time will tell..
Love and Light Everyone!